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there's always restrictions and limitations to
something, just like an enclosure.. what are the consequences of
breaking it?

if the thoughts count, why do we always have to go the extra mile to prove ourselves?

if you think you went the extra mile for a reason worthwhile, why feel that you've expected too much?

i don't know what else to do..

i don't know what else to do..

it's just me.

i've been constantly telling myself that all these is going to work,


我明白了明白了 那不是我的爱
求你快点回头爱他 不要让他伤心

SNAP SNAP!!

i cut my hair!!I CUT MY HAIR!!i cut MY HAIRRRRRR!!i cut my hair!!i cut MY HAIRRRRRR!!cut CUT cut CUT cut CUT CUT CUT!!

lols..TWICE some more..

friday,3weeks of attachment served,5days since that 7th March 2010.

still counting but things were kind of different today.i climbed stairs for like..hours??on and off de..KILLER i tell you.heng J and T was there.peii me chat..oh ya!! and TLS,S,N and P.one thing about engineering job that'll never change..is that you can slack whenever you finish ur stuff..TTM!!

i tried to stop myself from thinking about you by burying myself in work and mingling with my fellow colleagues.but whenever i stop,my mind just go on and on thinking about you.there'll never be an end to this..it can only fade,only be numbed towards this feeling of disappointment.

peeps,do you ever wonder why is it that no matter how much you do,you will never be able to hold a candle with them?do you ever think about why you seem to be more like a third party?do you think of them even after so much has happened?do you wonder why you cant stop thinking about them?do you think about that puny possibility of having them by ur side again?

it's over,and it will never be the same again.stop dreaming about it..you can never have them back..or rather,they were never urs..try..don't cry anymore..

dots.

while everyone's bz walking about,working,i'm in the computer room listening to that familiar song,thinking about you.

peeps,do you know how i feel right now?i think you do..missing that someone who misses someone else.missing someone who doesn't not feel the same towards you.thinking day and night about that person,knowing it can never be the same again..not because you're unwilling to,not because you havn't done enough,but because you're late,fate's late.

the helplessness just devours me from within..with the enthusiasm developed from starvation,the obligation to accept the truth that seems like punishment when you've put in all your effort,the devastation that numbed your feelings..numbed yourself..becoming someone you can't recognize.



this is what love can do..you can love them for nothing they've done,and reject them for everything they've done.love can help you find yourself,and possibly..losing yourself.

changes.

i always get some changes whenever i'm feeling down.be it physically,mentally,or just the places i go..just change..at least for the time being.

i had a haircut yesterday.cut away all my long golden strands liao..so now only hav black and white.LOL!!i dun think i'm going to regret for now..cuz i know that at least,i've gotten rid of how i look like when i'm with him,kinda reduces of the familiarity with the pain that comes along these days though it doesn't stop the pain from coming.

lotsa things i tried,and yet it doesn't make a difference.i'm going for a break..drink and chill out till i can feel myself again i guess..ASK ME OUT OKAYY??I WANNA PLAYYYYYYYY!!

it'll never be the same again.

it always ends up the same.


i'm a person who trusts others very easily just because they dare to say it.i also am very naive.what about you?


i always thought to myself..trust them,why not?since they've promised you,they've reassured you..why not??i'm naive..because i believe in grace,the benefit of doubt..a chance.


sometime in life,we all need chance.but sometimes,chance can be in form of an opportunity whereby you yourself can realise it..it's just what you decide to do with it.

crap..i reali dunno what to say..no appetite,no mood,no nothing.feels like there's a lag at the back of my throat,somewhere in between the back of my brain and the center of my shoulder..makes me feel so.......reali dunno what to say..

i cnt believe after doing so much,i'm still no better than her..

love is selfish,but not self-centered.

some time in love,you would recall the times of being with your preloves,right?it may be a thought of reminiscing,acknowledging that you had been with them,that those things did happen before,but then again,there's another type reminiscing whereby you'll feel like turning back time..if it was ever possible.

peeps,in any case,just remember to be true to both yourself and your lover.you can be honest because lying will never be any worse than agitating someone,you can miss your preloves for the first few days of a new relationship but not forever..okayy?





missin you already..

dardar keep vomitting and having gastric..leaves me nothing but despair.wonder when he'll go see doctor,wonder when he'll get well,wonder if my constant reminder of asking him to have his meals and asking him to drink more water would work.

ton with dardar at his buddy's gf's jia ytd.SUPER HAPPY cuz i got to be with dardar for more than 24hrs!!though there were little hiccups here and there,but for the start,i guess it's still managable. =)

dardar came to meet my mum ytd,cuz of some religion stuff at night,and before that,i met his mum in the early noon.everything's SUPER AWKWARD i tell you.i was at his house the whole time,and his mother just kept looking at me when i enter the house and greeted her,and then the next thing was her asking me if i've eaten,and showing me some bread for me to choose from..SUPER HAPPY LARHS!! >.< xiang xiang ma hor~ HAHA!! =X

first wk of the rs was SUPER SHIOK!!got to see him so many days out of the whole week!!HAPPY HAPPY!! =D though i had to travel alot,it was SUPER WORTH IT!!cuz at least,for the very least bit,he care for me lots and wouldn't let me go outta his sight cuz he worries about me. =D

there are lotsa things we have to work out together.will need lotsa thinking,time and patience.oh ya!!SLEEP TOO!!gosh..this wk slp only about 30hrs lor..all the dark dark stuff come out le..lols..DARK EYE RINGSSSSSS!! >.<>

dardar,jia you!!you can de!!i'll be there for you,and we'll go through it together,thick and thin!! =D

there's always restrictions and limitations to
something, just like an enclosure.. what are the consequences of
breaking it?

if the thoughts count, why do we always have to go the extra mile to prove ourselves?

if you think you went the extra mile for a reason worthwhile, why feel that you've expected too much?

i don't know what else to do..

i don't know what else to do..

it's just me.

i've been constantly telling myself that all these is going to work,


我明白了明白了 那不是我的爱
求你快点回头爱他 不要让他伤心

SNAP SNAP!!

i cut my hair!!I CUT MY HAIR!!i cut MY HAIRRRRRR!!i cut my hair!!i cut MY HAIRRRRRR!!cut CUT cut CUT cut CUT CUT CUT!!

lols..TWICE some more..

friday,3weeks of attachment served,5days since that 7th March 2010.

still counting but things were kind of different today.i climbed stairs for like..hours??on and off de..KILLER i tell you.heng J and T was there.peii me chat..oh ya!! and TLS,S,N and P.one thing about engineering job that'll never change..is that you can slack whenever you finish ur stuff..TTM!!

i tried to stop myself from thinking about you by burying myself in work and mingling with my fellow colleagues.but whenever i stop,my mind just go on and on thinking about you.there'll never be an end to this..it can only fade,only be numbed towards this feeling of disappointment.

peeps,do you ever wonder why is it that no matter how much you do,you will never be able to hold a candle with them?do you ever think about why you seem to be more like a third party?do you think of them even after so much has happened?do you wonder why you cant stop thinking about them?do you think about that puny possibility of having them by ur side again?

it's over,and it will never be the same again.stop dreaming about it..you can never have them back..or rather,they were never urs..try..don't cry anymore..

dots.

while everyone's bz walking about,working,i'm in the computer room listening to that familiar song,thinking about you.

peeps,do you know how i feel right now?i think you do..missing that someone who misses someone else.missing someone who doesn't not feel the same towards you.thinking day and night about that person,knowing it can never be the same again..not because you're unwilling to,not because you havn't done enough,but because you're late,fate's late.

the helplessness just devours me from within..with the enthusiasm developed from starvation,the obligation to accept the truth that seems like punishment when you've put in all your effort,the devastation that numbed your feelings..numbed yourself..becoming someone you can't recognize.



this is what love can do..you can love them for nothing they've done,and reject them for everything they've done.love can help you find yourself,and possibly..losing yourself.

changes.

i always get some changes whenever i'm feeling down.be it physically,mentally,or just the places i go..just change..at least for the time being.

i had a haircut yesterday.cut away all my long golden strands liao..so now only hav black and white.LOL!!i dun think i'm going to regret for now..cuz i know that at least,i've gotten rid of how i look like when i'm with him,kinda reduces of the familiarity with the pain that comes along these days though it doesn't stop the pain from coming.

lotsa things i tried,and yet it doesn't make a difference.i'm going for a break..drink and chill out till i can feel myself again i guess..ASK ME OUT OKAYY??I WANNA PLAYYYYYYYY!!

it'll never be the same again.

it always ends up the same.


i'm a person who trusts others very easily just because they dare to say it.i also am very naive.what about you?


i always thought to myself..trust them,why not?since they've promised you,they've reassured you..why not??i'm naive..because i believe in grace,the benefit of doubt..a chance.


sometime in life,we all need chance.but sometimes,chance can be in form of an opportunity whereby you yourself can realise it..it's just what you decide to do with it.

crap..i reali dunno what to say..no appetite,no mood,no nothing.feels like there's a lag at the back of my throat,somewhere in between the back of my brain and the center of my shoulder..makes me feel so.......reali dunno what to say..

i cnt believe after doing so much,i'm still no better than her..

love is selfish,but not self-centered.

some time in love,you would recall the times of being with your preloves,right?it may be a thought of reminiscing,acknowledging that you had been with them,that those things did happen before,but then again,there's another type reminiscing whereby you'll feel like turning back time..if it was ever possible.

peeps,in any case,just remember to be true to both yourself and your lover.you can be honest because lying will never be any worse than agitating someone,you can miss your preloves for the first few days of a new relationship but not forever..okayy?





missin you already..

dardar keep vomitting and having gastric..leaves me nothing but despair.wonder when he'll go see doctor,wonder when he'll get well,wonder if my constant reminder of asking him to have his meals and asking him to drink more water would work.

ton with dardar at his buddy's gf's jia ytd.SUPER HAPPY cuz i got to be with dardar for more than 24hrs!!though there were little hiccups here and there,but for the start,i guess it's still managable. =)

dardar came to meet my mum ytd,cuz of some religion stuff at night,and before that,i met his mum in the early noon.everything's SUPER AWKWARD i tell you.i was at his house the whole time,and his mother just kept looking at me when i enter the house and greeted her,and then the next thing was her asking me if i've eaten,and showing me some bread for me to choose from..SUPER HAPPY LARHS!! >.< xiang xiang ma hor~ HAHA!! =X

first wk of the rs was SUPER SHIOK!!got to see him so many days out of the whole week!!HAPPY HAPPY!! =D though i had to travel alot,it was SUPER WORTH IT!!cuz at least,for the very least bit,he care for me lots and wouldn't let me go outta his sight cuz he worries about me. =D

there are lotsa things we have to work out together.will need lotsa thinking,time and patience.oh ya!!SLEEP TOO!!gosh..this wk slp only about 30hrs lor..all the dark dark stuff come out le..lols..DARK EYE RINGSSSSSS!! >.<>

dardar,jia you!!you can de!!i'll be there for you,and we'll go through it together,thick and thin!! =D

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