September 7, 2004
The Season Of Depression.... @ 12:14
It was the first day after i gt transfered frm one skol to another...it was a little frightening thou...
i was looking for a seat...
thou many offered me,i jus sat bside a gal hu looked as if she was a stayed back student...
sitting bside her wasnt bad,but wasn gt too...cos the boy bside me,was too overwhelming and kept toking to me...
and as i saw teacher coming into the class,i warned the boy abt the teacher but he jus didn cared...
i thought it was my fault bcos after that,he gt punished...
i blamed myself for it and even appologised...he said he wasn angry but he had stopped toking alot...
at the n of the yr,i somehow gt his telephone number and talked to him...we bcame close but time! Time dragged us apart...
we talked abt our greatest need,abt everthg...it's like s if we were twins!
inspite,he told me that he has sumthg very important one night...but bcos i was watching my favourite show,i said i'd call him later but after that,he was aleadi asleep...
~~~~~~~DAYS PASSED AND..........~~~~~~~
this all happenned in the december holidays of 2001....
but it is still fresh in my mind...he helped me when i was in trouble,helped me and spoke up for me eventhough i was always the one hu complained to teacher abt him being the culprit...
tha kind soul gt was said to hav transfered when the skol re-opened in the yr 2002....
i never heard of him again...until the yr 2003 in december again...i saw him in the secondary skol that i was registrating in and immediately recalled the incident which left me in guilt for 2yrs....
i immitated the voices of the other boys and found out abt his news...
i called him one fine saturday and asked him abt the call...
"hello?"(it's like as if we were strangers....)
"yes?who r u looking for?"(he could no longer recognised my voice...eventhough he said his memory is gd...)
"er...im yuan shan...u remember ma...?"(i wasn execting him to say yes...)
"ya..."(there was complete silent after that...)
"em...your memory very gd right...?"(i was crying out in my heart as i said that...)
"ya...y?"(there's onli two syllabus in the ans...which means that u r not going to noe the ans..)
"do u still remember the day u called me...saying u hav a very urgent thg to tell me?"(i felt that i shouldn hav asked...)
"ya..."(the conversation is going to end very badly...)
"so...wad were u trying to say?"(i regretted alot for putting telelvision programes b4 u but pls forgive me...)
"em...i 4get le..."(tears rolled down my cheek as i hear him saying it...)
"sori arh..."(he appologised...)
''never mind...then ok lor....bb!''
and i hung up to cry...
+++++++cherish ur friend b4 they turn into strangers again+++++++