May 23, 2005
--+||__ihateu.butitsnoturfault__||+-- @ 23:19
look back...ther's been alot of time when i put stupid stupid nicks on my msn...it's like im always searching for attention...and not get it...
and this time...it's abt him...
i reali like him lor~
but i piss him off...hoping tt he wuld not want to tok to me...reali hope he wuld stop apologising...cos the more he says sori...the more remourseful i feel...thou i like him..i dun giv him the previleges..i onli smile at him more...but tt's the past...i juz hope i culd forget him...forget the times we had together...it's wad i tink is correct...but i tink..in this world...there's no1 fast enuf to tink wad's rite and wrong...and that they'r not fast enuf to realise...to notice...so now it's me...i reali hope he wuld do the rite thg...wad's correct...not logical...cos since love needs no logical reasons...u dun need logical logics to deter wad u shuld do next...it's not my frenx fault...neither his...its me...my stuborness...but this wuld tel if i wuld stil noe him in the next 7yrs...
i din want to piss him off...i din want that...but it's not wad he want either...it's wad i feel that it's time to do this....cos i cant take it any more...i wil live...but i'll jus leave alone...dun wori my frens...but it's jus me being stubborn...i noe u al care...but it's not ur fault...so dun need to do anythg...the most u can do is drop me a msg to tel me wad i shuld do k?
i reali hope u noe wad im toking abt...hu im referring to...i hope u take the initiative...
all these is not wad i want...but im saying it to protect myself...i told u i realise...i noe wad to do...but i jus dun wan...cos i hate taking the initiative...and esp this time....do u ask a patient on operate himself?