May 16, 2005
||JiDi||fEeL_uNwAnTeD_N_AbAnDoNeD|| @ 10:51
recently...i realli feel like nthg culd b done...i feel so helpless and so abandoned...i noe that my frens care for me...they want me to b joyful like always...but the prob is that i culd hardly breathe...not that i m jealous but im utterly envious of ppl hu hav bfs...ask me y???
cos i dun haf one...it's not tt i dun haf then i wana haf one..but i reali dun feel tt i hav a special one to care and b there for me lorx...i can harldy take it any more...it's like life is no longer tt fortunate...
today...later...im gonna check my paper lerx...i feel like i culd never pass my exam...i even fail my attitude........my attitude sucks...i suck....im not gd....i shuld hav never been born...im in skol now...but i feel like im living in hell....total darkness that's onli in black and white...perhaps there's never been white...onli black...dun need to care abt me...im jus like an abandoned lil puppy....so hurt and so sad....never wil b able to lift up my head and live upright again...i feel like nthg is eva there....nthg is eva gd...nthg is eva lovely....
im reali sori if i haf offended u in the past...im reali sori if i hav scolded u in the past...but im reali in need of help...i tink i hav fallen into depression...jus keep me happy k...thankz.....
JiDi_FaTe