May 3, 2005
Life or love? @ 20:04
between life and love,mayb i wuld choose love..cos life is nthg without love...
if u'd seen the type of life i live in,u wuld realise wad i hav said is true..even if u hav all the attention in the world that u had eva wanted to get,u wil stil feel that smthg is missing....smthg logical...fantastical...is missing....
when i was young,all i wanted was to get attention!!!....make more frens!!!!
but now,i look back...the number of frens i hav are beyond calculation...but how do i feel??
i thought that if i had all the attention that i wanted in my life,i wuld feel so fortunate...but instead,i felt miserable...
i look at my well trusted fren...some betray me for smthg they felt is worth betraying me for,without even thinking how badly i wuld b hurt by their actions...some,jus simply forget me after the time/period they need me....
wad's the use of having attention??i felt i was jus being used over and over again,by different ppl frm different place...
then i look at my gd buddies...they told me their love stories...precious experiences..i called.....it's so sweet...to at least hav some1 to look for,to rely on,to tok to...almost all the time...some1 hu's wiling to take u on...to care for u...to make u feel important..feel loved...it's a v rare cycle,v fantastical...but yet,it's real...it's there...waiting for u to come...when u wil b ready...
so dun rush into thgs...use ur heart to feel it...dun use ur eyes to observe...ur heart can tell u everythg,but ur eyes cant...
try to understand wad im trying to say...no1 can b more sad then u r...no1 can feel more hopeless then u...if there's any1,it wuld be me...look at me...so violent...so fierce...so hot-tempered...so ugly...dun u tink im the one hu shuld b feelin so???
hahaz...well...i am feeling like tt....hopeless....sad...lovesick and everythg...sob sob....
but anyway,thanks for reading my blog...if u hav time,pls read up other blogs and pls..to prove that u hav read my blog,pls write a comment...
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