June 15, 2005
@ 21:10
hey...i reali cant take it le...this is not me...tryin to let u all wori...but it's real...the truth...i reali dunno wad the heck is going in ur mind!u dun tel me anythg...then u're juz givin me tt stupid attitude tt i hav attitude problem~!u're not telin me wher,when,how i went wrong,but giving me tt silly attitude...that same old stupid hint..probbing me to apologise!!i tel u!it's of no use~!im 14..not 4!for our frendship's sake,i can apologise...but i dun tink mine and urs is worth it..cos u're not givin a damn abt me!u're acting lyk as if onli the guys exist!u're acting lyk as if im not important...it's reali pathetic...i tot i culd trust u...with my heart...to let u lead me...let u understand me...but u're juz another one tt's hurtin me...makin my life difficult...all u're showing me is tt im wrong no matter wad i do..all u're showing me is tt im useless...u're not helping...not in anyway...u juz dun wana care..dun wana b involved!!!u juz hate me dun u?!for getting in ur way!!?!!disturbing u?!am i reali tt irritating?!?!am i reali tt pathetic?!!am i so useless to u?!do u noe im also a human...?do u noe i oso hav feelins?in times of need...like this...i need u...hu witnessed almost everythg...to help me...to guide me slowly...step by step and tel me wher i went wrong...but instead,u're juz ignoring me like others do!!wad is tt?!if i dun deserve ur appreciation,then tel me!!so i dun hav to keep waitin for it!!!if im not fit to b in ur sight,then juz tel me straight in my face...dun make me lose my confidence!!u're eating me frm inside...i didn noe u're so.....i didn noe u're so....u're juz so cruel...and the rest?so bias...u all are pathetic!!!plz dun act like angels in frm of them and heck care me 1 on 1...cos it's of no use...i dun keep quiet abt hypocrites~!and i hate getting the blame...use ur fingers and count...so many guys...how many hav i being saying sori to??do i reali hav to do so much...but yet not earning any trust..or worth of anythg?it's so disappointing...fine...u want me to apologise?FINE!!!!IM SORI!!!!!GET IT???JUZ DUN bug me any more...i dun wana c u....primary skol frenx...but now?how are u all treating me?"dun bear grudges...if any unhappiness,juz say in a nice way..."o wadeva!!!!u're sayin one thg and doin another!!doesn it prick ur concience?!get off my back!!!im sayin this "sori" to u once and for all...if u cant stand me,cant understand wad im tryin to do...then forget it...juz tel me...so i can cry over it alone...once and for all!!!!i dun wana dwell in it for so long...u all are juz pathetice hypocrites that do stupid thgs...saying silly thgs...u dun noe wad u're saying..wad u're doin...jus tel me...smack me in my face once and for all or wadeva...i dun wana go thru it so long..ITZ TORMENTING ME!!!!ITZ KILLIN!!!!