June 16, 2005
@ 13:03
hey...i reali cant take it le...u all juz ignore me time and time again...makin me feel sick abt u all...and u!u jus heck care me when u dun need me...u're a hypocrite man!im sick of u!u're bias,sickening...and u say one thg and mean another!u're jus hurting me...juz tormentin me...u sicko....u do those stupid thgs tt hurt me..and u say im giving u trouble...juz leave me alone..i dun wana c u again...jus like u...not wanting to c me again...isn tt wad u want?u ask urself la..wad the bloody heck hav u been giving me?u're jus eating me frm inside...u make me eat my words...but u're juz another hypocrite...u act like an angel in frnt of guys...and u jus giv me those stupid hints and make me say sori!im sick of it le!u juz make me feel like as if im bothering u!!like im a despicable and irritating idiot in ur sight!!u break me up into pieces with ur words..and u juz continue living lyk nthg happened..u treat me like dirt...like chewing gums...after the taste's gone,u jus stick me under the table...or jus throw me aside!!!u get angry with me over lil lil thgs!!u giv me tt feelin like as if u dun care a damn if i'd die!!u make me feel so sick!!!i treat u like my best fren...and when u dun need it,u jus show me tt tt's wad u're feelin...not my prob!!!ha ha..to tink im so stupid enuf to believe...im reali so stupid...to fall for it...i didn noe...im so useless in ur eyes...to u...guys mean more huh~?peng you zuo dao zhe yang?FINE!!!SORI!!!!GET IT!??!!IT'S MY STUPID ATTITUDE?!?!!!!!OK!!!!!SORI!!!!!I WUN BOTHER U ANY MORE!!!!!!HAPPY!?!?!
this is the worst...i didn noe this wuld happen to me...i tot all my frens wuld treat me truthfully if i'd treated them truthfully too...but instead,.....im not trusted at all....im blasted at...im so uninvited....i feel so neglected...i feel like im so extra...like as if even if i'd die...no1 wuld care...my goodness...im juz self-pity-ing myself...but y????i tink i noe...nvm...if u dun like my attitude...it's the same as u dun like me being ur fren...if u dun appreciate me...jus say it...smack me in my face..beat me up....juz leave me alone after u've done wad u feel makes u shiok!!!i hate the way u treat me!!!!u hypocrites!!!!i thought if i'd treated u truthfully...u wuld too...but u're jus getting the chill!!!!pls...let me live!!!!if i dun deserve it,jus tel me!!!dun make me wait for it...cos it's nothing tt u're makin me wait!!!"dun bear grudges against one another...if unhappy...jus say nicely..."wadeva!!!giv me a break...since when u did it?u urself say it..but u did it the other way round!!!act merciful...plz...u're jus making me regret...u'r so irking...jus tel me everythg u're unhappy with me once and for all..then i wun disturb..bother u again ok..?dun make me cry in a corner..and then launch another attack at me when u feel like it's time..."peng you zuo dao zhe yang"sound familiar??it's wad u'v said...ask any other gals..how wuld they feel if their best fren were to say this to them?????sobx...im done...jus leave me alone...but if u wana severe ties with me,jus do it..dun wait any longer..cos i cant take it any more....dun act like u dunno anythg...it's pointless....