July 8, 2005
i wun regret @ 10:59
no matter wad i do..wad i say..wad i promise..as long as i can do it..as long as i can help..i will do it..it's like always..it's like it's taking foreva for me to find the right guy..first...i thought he's the one...but then..he end up juz being too bz to care abt me..im not saying he's neglecting me..but how i feel..u shuld noe..im not blaming any1..but reali..i miz him too much le..
wad i need is a guy tt can save me some attention...
a guy tt can juz love me...cos i need love...attention and care..i dun need anythg else other then tt...but of all the people i noe..of all the days i had...of all the type of thgs tt culd hav happened...chances slipped thru my fingers..i made the wrong decision...and now...the past effects me...
i onli felt tt i culd hav stop fantasizing...and get to the reality side...i thought i culd...with that diff...i reali wana b a part of u...beside u..knowing u...but itz all up to u...
notice itz usually the guyz doin this part..but i duno y...im the one doing it when i felt itz true..
mayb im reali tinking too much...itz impossible ba...but whether isit gonna b like tt...duzn reali take shape soo soon...stil up to u...
haiz...nowadayz...sian until like wad sia...can rot le...sobx...so bored...so sad...feel so useless....feel like im hopeless le...i juz wonder abt this when im sian...when my mind is blank........m is my attitude so poor til no1 tt i like wil eva like me??