September 9, 2005
Nothing could be more worse than living hell... @ 12:37
Juz a story...best is u listen to pretty boy continuously while reading this...
A husky voice picked on the line as i stutter to speak my mind."what were you thinking?8person?It's ridiculous!"But the instruction still got carried out as time passed.
I was to find 8 people to go for iceskating refreshments.And all started here.We were just friends,helping him to 'fulfil' his birthday wish to hav a group celebration on 5th of August,a friday.We talked alot from then onwards,and even hav conferences.Then on his actual birthday,7th of August,Samantha,Lenny,Lenny's Boyfriend,Fann and Fann's 'boyfriend' and Claire went to his house for his actual birthday party.Now,the present,I just hope that i wasn't even in the ice-skating session.Perhaps,things could turn out better and easier for all of us.OR,i would just be left aside like always?Things just started to go crazy...
Samantha went:''What if Claire likes you?"
"Nah...it can't happen...we'll see when it happens."
and things juz went chaos...
21st August...Daniel sounded Claire,saying he's serious,he's truthful and confident that his love for her could last till a hundred days before they presenf themselves to the public as a couple.Of course,Claire went along with the decision as it was something she'd dreamed of,and what she felt.She was sober!
Then all the honeyed words just went in and out of the handphone,back and forth their smiles went.They greeted each other as 'dear' and always ends with 'muacks'.'i love you' was so cheap back then and even Samantha bought it with a flirt.A crush and a love at the same time.Did you even think Claire was stupid to even fall for it when she knew everything?OR was she just plain submissive?which?i think both...
She was there,all the while when her best friend got Daniel's attention.It was inappropriate but he broke up with Claire,saying he'd needed to take a step back to look through,think and understand what exactly is going on.And He,then,promised Claire that they would last for at least half a year.
It was living hell for Claire the period they broke up but Claire,was good enough.She'd told Daniel that she would wait for him.And later,they patched.Just 3 days!
Daniel told Claire that he'd couldn't make it being jealous repeatedly though he'd felt happier with Samantha,and he just kind of,misses Claire,Claire's heart melted and soon,she was floating above the ceiling again,sweet-talking non-stop again.however,little did she dare to suspect the change in Daniel.
Daniel became less open Claire,claiming it might harm her,but wouldn't she been more hurt if she was the last to know?
Daniel couldn't stop thinking about Claire all the time,both day and night and when the results came out,he'd dropped badly,failed his English.
Holding hands on the second day after they'd patched made both of them claim that it was unbelievable.Unbelievable?Yeah!How long did it last?Another hurtful,fake and pathetic week. 7days and yet,it's still another passing wind that has to go.
Love is hurtful!It can't be touched!Avoid it!
Beautiful fantasy always has an end.And it came.
7th August,they quarelled and yet,things were just not sorted out.Daniel somehow,bore hatred against Claire and He just thought even if calling to hear her voice and then just saying goodbye wouldn't hurt.But things went the wrong way. It ended at 11.38pm that night when all the people would be sleeping,all the people.
Nonetheless,the news broke.Daniel's mum didn't like Claire.Not at all.And Claire just went "ok..but..ok..." on the phone that night.For all she has done,things were still not working right.Her instincts had been telling her the truth the whole time!
The mother hate her.Daniel felt suffocated in her presence."We had nothing in common." "I'm a jerk...find yourselves another guy..."
For all the things she've done,for all the words she've spoken,for all the ways Daniel could have treated her,Daniel choose to be selfish,choose to leave her when all he used to say was "I love you",,"I must be with you","I will love you no matter what","Please don't leave me...I need you..."
That night...Claire was left alone,crying quietly in the bed...crying with a headache when all others were sleeping...snoring fortunately.
He left her,took her back,and left her again.
She smiled,cried,and smiled again.
The letters she wrote and wanted to give him...The scoldings and mockings she faced...Even when Daniel was vexed and confused...she tried to tell Daniel that she wasn't any better,wasn't any better,at all.Torn into peices and left aside...just like the letters...No one exactly could understand how she felt.To be prioritised and yet left behind...Little did she whined or took revenge about the accusations she had to take in when she wasn't even in the wrong.
What's done can't be undone.All she did was cry and though even till the next day she had a terrible headache that seemed to be her brain compressing and expanding repeatedly,she stil cried...cried....cried the pain...out of her...
The love that brought her to a change...to a higher level,dropped her to the deepest depths of the ocean and left her struggling.Daniel's mother was actually angry with her mother...her best fren told her.....
Do you think Claire was selfish?Was she pitiful?was she really unlucky to meet with such a problem?Was she stupid?What do you think of it?Do you even think it happened for real?What would u do if u were her...?