November 19, 2006
its the first tym im so fuckin sober abt being single... @ 17:59
Hey guys and gals...it's been a long time since i bloggeddddd.....
bleahx!!haiz..tink im goin crazy le..i now single...everythg is so fuckin damn bad for me...
too bad i brought it upon myself..
this was wad happened...
i had a nice bf hu kare abt me...bt we were quarellin for the first 2mths..almost everydae..
and then when it cms to the 3rd mth,we were lyk...not talkin at much...
then there cms a guy tries damn hard to get me..
bt when his mum finally commented,she said tt she disapproved of us being together and stuff lyk im stil childish..
it's damn hurting..and fuckin shitty...i duno y im using all thez words to describe how messed up i feel,how ill i feel...but its not the blood that i hate,it's not the words that i hate and most importantly,it's not the guy that i hate,but the situation...it's fuckin damn bloody like shit..
reminds me of the malay guy i fell for previously when he said his mum disapproved,then i end up finding out tt he timed me and stuff.....
chee bai arr.......i hit my knuckles against the floor ytd when i heard the news,then now all bruised lidat..clench my fist oso pain...
i duno wad to do...reali lost for this time...i dun wana b alone..but itz not my choice..i fell for him when i v well noe that i already had a bf...i noe im bad..i noe im hopeless...not committed...sobz.. but for now...i onli wish that we were stil close...i noe we can neva b as close..but i onli ask to b frens hum u wun avoid...
wish i had knew all these comin..then thgs wun end this wae le...my msgs...onli waiting for some light that wil brighten up my life...waiting for some hope...
bt all i cn do for nw is juz cry...as much as i miss him,my heart is bleedin..and i noe..
he feels the same wae...juz like before......
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