November 18, 2006
a whirlpool of sadness,confusion,being lost,loneliness and pain.. @ 15:15
sobx..i feel so lost..i feel like i've lost the ability to stand up on my own..like i've finally come to realise that i hav already lost that mind i use to hav,that very pure gal tt use to live in me..
mayb she's grown up,juz like how others said she wud..but why isit that it onli seems to me that she dusn wana let me understand her anymore?
i miss her.that innocent and trouble-free gal.
i cant tel how is she changing.she's so complicated now.
i cant tel how she feels.but i tink she herself too wudn noe.
i cant see the direction she's goin.but i noe she's not safe like tt.
i cant define her anymore.she's so much of a stranger to me.
bt i wana noe that she's fine..
i wana noe she's happy..
i wana noe she's being kare and paid attention to..
but how can that happen...
it onli seems like no matter wad she duz,
nobody wil understand her,
nobody can get close enuf..
without hurting her...
so dun cm any nearer coz she's dying slowlyl,being eaten up frm the inside..
and if u come any closer,im afraid u wud hav to die with her too...