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i've felt this way before.Quiet and wrecked.

It seems like i always feel this way whenever im alone.However,i just feel this way now.Like a ship,sinking its way down to the bed of the sea,which never seems possible.

My heart feels like a computer software with its signals to call for help failing and weakening each and every second.i like to eat cup noodles,just because it fills my stomach.But i've never given a second thought about whether is it good for my health.

At this very second,i feel like as if..there's no one for me to love.i've let down the one i once loved,and lost my very own way.i should have keep on my track and stay away from those temptations.And not to neglect,he was the only one who had faith in me,that i am a nice.But i let him down.

Now,after a long time of being alone,i find myself,unnoticingly,fading away,just like the sos signal.People..please believe in me.i really am trying to change,but sometimes i just find myself allowing the devil to enter through just the foothole at my door.It feels like im slowly losing myself.No one believes me anymore,that i can change,that i am good.it feels like i've lost the only one who could testify for my femanine side,the one who could love me for the way i am.And i could only blame myself for this.

it made me lose my apetite,my energy,my humour,and everything else that can allow me to give people a good impression.For once,all i'm yearning for is a chance.i,too,want to have suitors who can give me,at least,a sweet memory to lean on.i ca't believe the fact that several years in the school,no one falls for me.Pretty pathetic isn't it?haha.Should i call myself ugly fat pig then?

i use to think that even if the whole world change,our friends don't.But then i realise,that in the world,the first to change would be the friends around us,when u least expected it.i am proud to say that i hav friends who changed,and friends who,somehow,didn't.Changed in a way like they would give a whole new impression.Despite that,i have several friends who is trying to help me change.Sarah,who often reminds me in many gentle ways,though sometimes aggitated me,never fails to be true like she hopes others could be.Christina,who is very direct,often unflicts me a wound.And my friend Curtbeth,who gives me advices and hold hopes to believe i can do it.However,they are very real.They are one of those who,whether will change in future or not,stays real.

Tell me,am i not acceptable?Why is it that no one loves me like those other guys would to their girlfriend?

..i really hope to have one.

[[___dLioN.siN___]]

i've felt this way before.Quiet and wrecked.

It seems like i always feel this way whenever im alone.However,i just feel this way now.Like a ship,sinking its way down to the bed of the sea,which never seems possible.

My heart feels like a computer software with its signals to call for help failing and weakening each and every second.i like to eat cup noodles,just because it fills my stomach.But i've never given a second thought about whether is it good for my health.

At this very second,i feel like as if..there's no one for me to love.i've let down the one i once loved,and lost my very own way.i should have keep on my track and stay away from those temptations.And not to neglect,he was the only one who had faith in me,that i am a nice.But i let him down.

Now,after a long time of being alone,i find myself,unnoticingly,fading away,just like the sos signal.People..please believe in me.i really am trying to change,but sometimes i just find myself allowing the devil to enter through just the foothole at my door.It feels like im slowly losing myself.No one believes me anymore,that i can change,that i am good.it feels like i've lost the only one who could testify for my femanine side,the one who could love me for the way i am.And i could only blame myself for this.

it made me lose my apetite,my energy,my humour,and everything else that can allow me to give people a good impression.For once,all i'm yearning for is a chance.i,too,want to have suitors who can give me,at least,a sweet memory to lean on.i ca't believe the fact that several years in the school,no one falls for me.Pretty pathetic isn't it?haha.Should i call myself ugly fat pig then?

i use to think that even if the whole world change,our friends don't.But then i realise,that in the world,the first to change would be the friends around us,when u least expected it.i am proud to say that i hav friends who changed,and friends who,somehow,didn't.Changed in a way like they would give a whole new impression.Despite that,i have several friends who is trying to help me change.Sarah,who often reminds me in many gentle ways,though sometimes aggitated me,never fails to be true like she hopes others could be.Christina,who is very direct,often unflicts me a wound.And my friend Curtbeth,who gives me advices and hold hopes to believe i can do it.However,they are very real.They are one of those who,whether will change in future or not,stays real.

Tell me,am i not acceptable?Why is it that no one loves me like those other guys would to their girlfriend?

..i really hope to have one.

[[___dLioN.siN___]]

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