June 10, 2007
[[WaiTinG.FoR.EcLiPsE]] @ 12:57
well..teased a guy todae..feel kinda stupid
coz even when i ask him..seriously..i stil kena reject..lolz..
feel kinda hurt tho..hahaz..
then...its abt intending to meet him todae..unfortunately,he was busy with his car..so dragged frm 2pm to 4plus,the to 5plus,then to 6plus..then at 7plus,he msged to sae he wudn be meeting me coz he's going home at 8pm..
i felt reali disappointed..being hit at bull's eye..it happened like my frens said it wud..no miracles wud help..no surprises wud take place..
my heart felt like as if it was being sucked into a warmhole..neva able to get out again..then i called him at 8.45pm..and said he jus reached home..then he asked if i missed him.."i did..thats why im sad now.."which he didn catch..then he jus asked if i wud wana meet tml for a movie..i thought it wud jus be another empty hope..so i juz gave that up and rejected the offer..then he said since so,he wud be going for a cycling session...well..it onli seem reali enuf that im not important to him at all...aftr which,he jus told me that he's slping at 1030..
im sad..i reali am..of all the ppl i chose,i chose to fall for him..someone whom i noe wudn be able to be commited enuf for me..but possesses the character,not the personality,of which i hope my bf to hav...howeva,like the all times conclusion:"when it's time,the right guy wud come.."
i reali jus wana love who i love right now..i dun kare if its stupid or not,its foolish or not..i jus hope he wud be able to do the same back..love me..i miss him..i dun feel that i shud listen to what my frens said..i dun feel that i shud giv up..but i reali hav no other motivation to wait...
not even any confirmation...
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