September 23, 2008
@ 19:25
林宥嘉 - 背影
been thinking about several stuff,especially about how i feel cuz i just cnt figure out why im feelin so emo nowadays..nthg seems to make the happiness within me last.
i kept thinking that it may be my bgr.maybe something's happening rite now that's showing me he's not who im meant to be with.WHAT IS WIF LOVE ANYWAY?!some people jus feel so contented wif being wif sm1 whom they love instead of sm1 who loved them..what's wrong wif that?DON'T ASK ME CUZ I DUN KNOW IT EITHER!!
anyway,i went on wondering if he's the right guy for me.and for several days,the same thg kept overwhelming me.i really don't noe what's wrong wif me.then suddenly,i realise something.is family love the thing im lacking?some one to ask:"how's lesson today?","are u okay?",cook porridge for me when im sick,listen to my sorrows when im down..
am i lacking that?
在回家的途中，我在一间面包店停顿了一会儿。我看了看那个制造waffle的烤机，便走到了面包店的另一个角落，看着我妈妈曾买给我吃的一包lemon cream biscuit，店员便问我：“小姐，你要买这饼干吗？很好吃的！或是要waffle吗？”
不知道为什么，听到她这么问，我有一种被关心的感觉，不知该买什么，就两样都买了。我的心很烦，脑子也很沉闷，不知道自己到底怎么了，为什么会这么想。到家后，我还在想。我男朋友对我那么好，我凭什么这样想？想着想着，我突然想起电视上常说的：“在一个破碎的家庭里，受到最大伤害的并不是大人，而是小孩。。。”
我会想起爸爸妈妈开始吵架的时候，我只有七岁。这个家庭情况维持了大概六年，之后他们就离婚，而妈妈也带着我们搬到了离爸爸家好一段距离的地方去。那时的我一直认为这不关我的事，我也不会受影响，但只从中四开始，我偶尔就会这想：为什么在我可以大声说我拥有我想要的东西时，我的心里却有另一个声音说反话？
我很不明白。是我哪里不听话了吗？还是我丢失了什么？或是我受到了他们俩儿的影响？
maybe itz pms..
