November 26, 2008
@ 09:37
I SWEAR I HATE TODAY'S LESSON!!!
CUZ THE FUCKING FIRST THG FACI SAID WAS
"TODAY EVERYONE MUST DO THINGS BY THEMSELVES,ESPECIALLY THE CALCULATIONS!!!"
NVR FELT SO BAD.
anyway...i have something to share today..
in this post..
that is..
a WONDERFUL dream.
i had a dream last night. It sorta comforted me about what i was thinking about last night. So before i talk abt wad my dream was, let me talk abt what i was thinking abt k? i kept wondering why BFF walked so fast ytd. cus me and my sis was abt one short stretch of escalator away from him, but aftr we reached lvl 1 frm b1, he was smwher near the entrance of cwp le..smwher arnd long john silver and delifrance. ther wer losta ppl. and i struggled to spot him as my sister starts getting frustrated. She was angry because i did not want to accompany her to Comic connection jus because i wana walk home with BFF.
I continued searching until i reached the traffic light which seperates the long path and cwp. by then, i was feeling rather disappointed and sad because i reali didn expect my BFF to walk out on me, not in a betrayal way, but in an abandoning way. i start to think, ponder. what have i done to deserve such treatment? was it wrong to hold hopes for a miracle that one day, everyone would be able to treat me as nice as they could.but i guess it's impossible.
I was constantly thinking about it, affected by it..even till i went to sleep.
In my dream,I was an artist.Not someone who draws,but someone who performs arts.A Arts Performer.I cudn't remember why but I ran away from my team and went to help these bunch of kids.They weren't ordinary kids but kids who are born unfortunate.I was there,helping them regain their rights to do what they want to do because some were being treated no different from slaves,while some others just feels abandoned,feel that there are no meaning in life,living in orphans.So all I did was to help them regain their self-confidence and move on.
Just when we were happily celebrating about the achievements,my team came to look for me.They explained how important it was for me to go back with them,and i went away relunctantly.While performing,the story plan was not told clearly to me,and I made a fool out of myself.I was feeling very down and useless,very bothered by other's perceptions,by the fact that I'm confused because I cudn understand why my team mates put me in such an embarressing situation.After the performance,I went to the backstage,and to my surprise,the children came to look for me!!I felt very comforted,very happy and touched why I saw them.
Do you ever ask yourself how many times in life do you feel touched for a little thing which others tried to do for you?How many times have you not relied on your friends and went out alone while doing things?How many times have you reflected in your feelings and trust others have given you?
It's not my business to say that you don't,but at this moment,I'd like to say that I have not been sensitive to other's feelings because I'm still trying very hard to be independent yet have friends whom I need.I need friends too..and I regret not being less dependent on them.I felt bothered by what my BFF did by just simply disappearing into the crowd is because I felt that he is very important to me,as a friend.The reason I felt sad is because I trusted him with the friendship we share,the care for one another.Little did I know,all of it fell on airs..nothing came out of it at all.
There is another thing which I would like to say..that is..to the people who are reading my blog,to the people who are hurt..if you ever need a listening ear,at night when you're unable to sleep,feel free to call me.I'll be more than willing to listen.Be it strangers or friends whom I know,feel free to do so.
my number's 9321 3977
i reali hope that one day..the world would be become better..