January 13, 2009
@ 16:29
went to my mum's yesterday..
i didn't understand..
every word i said about being worried..
not wanting my sister to have diabetes..
not wanting to lose her..
my mum got it..
i went to take my passport and ic yesterday..
and my my mum revealed to me..
after much talking,she told me..
"i have diabetes.."
i feel rather shocked..
and although i did not say anything much..
it was a fact which i've never had to accept but now..
penetrating through my heart to be the past..
another thing that happen ytd..
was about the O level maths results released..
BFF did not pass it as desinated..
which he could hardly accept..
i can't believe how he made himself suffer..
he kept telling me in the morning that he's really sad..
and that i would never understand how he felt..
because i passed and he failed..
he coped himself in the house and wudn go skol..
and told me that i was causing disturbance to him and his family..
by sms-ing and calling him..
pestering him to go to school..
pestering him to not give up..
i really didn't understand how this was a blunder..
to my mum whom i've been hating for the past few years..
ever since i know how to think..
these are the few things i've been thinking:
++ instead of telling me im wrong,
you should really think from my side..
because im sick of doing so,
and betraying my heart for doing so..
++ and about you having diabetes now,
i feel sad for you,but im not going to do anything..
because for the past few years,
i've been over inflicted by you,
and nothing is going to heal it even if you die..
++ i will cry for you when you go,
but not because you will go..
and to my BFF who's so stucked up and wun listen now..
this is what i could say:
++ i really hate it when you tried to make me feel like i was a pest,
when i tried to make you move on..
++ you're not the only one who experiences failure in life,
many others have also experienced it too!!
and in life,it's not about the failure,
but how you get over it,learn to overcome it..
and pick urself up from ther,MOVE ON!!
++ you can do a million and more things..
to make others feel sad for you..
to make other worry for you..
but one of the main thing is that ultimately..
you won't get learn from it because you're just..
merely making use of it!!
said my piece..
it's ur CHOICE whether you reflect about it or not..
thatz not my problem..
im done saying im your friend..
im done offerring my help..
it's your decision to do something about it,
OR NOT!!