February 22, 2009
@ 03:24
simply stressed.
went kbox today,at amk.
jerry,peiyi,me.
this mv is the song that was auto played.
well,the k-lunch was quite good lar..
then after that went suntec.
*sigh*
it's really pathetic lor..
going all the way there for one stupid maple account.
and we went to look for the IP Zone there,
but it's closed down liao,
so just come back.
pathetic lor.
never buy anything.
(hate such english.bochup liao!!)
im emotionally stressed up rite nw.
jerry and i watched He's Just Not That Into You.
sadly,i hav to admit,
tt i just chose to watch it wif the wrong person lar..
he practically SLEPT during the movie can??
and when i got freaking pissed like..
after he did it for like 4 or 5 times,
i juz didn bothr to tok to him liao..
but when i tried to clarify things,
how pissed,how vexed,how upset,
he just sat there crying because he cnt help.
then the next thg i rmb myself doin was to talk to myself,
in the toilet as i bathe,
for abt 30mins??
reali crap lor..
can you imagine me askin myself
-why i hav such high expectations from him?
-why do i want a complete family aftr marriage?
-why cnt i accept him for who he is?
-why do i feel he's an irritant to me?
-what is maturity?
etc. etc.
dun bother to type more liao..
my mense is driving me NUTS lor!!
it flowed like a RIVER today sia..
disgusting..................
i had a heavy loss of blood............
anyway,all i can say is,
no matter how much im irritated by him,
no matter how much i hate how he delays doing stuff
which i ask him to or he has to do when he's wif me,
no matter how many times he has slept in the movie,
no matter how badly he cries,
no matter how pathetic i find him a failure,
no matter how much i might suffer upon agreeing to meet,
i still hav that feelin for him..
for some reasons,
nobody has ever..
loved me as much as he did,
stick to me as closely as he did aftr being scolded so many times,
changed for me so drastically even when it took time,
hugged me no matter what status quo we are as long as i want or allow him to,
cried for me so much like as if he'd lost his way home,
or even called me so many times or just kept quiet so that i cud hav sm time to think or to try to talk me out of the persistence of wanting to break..
he'd reali done alot for me..
im sorry,i really need to sort my thoughts out.
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*emmeline's free except wed........(to be updated..)
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