March 19, 2009
@ 23:42
endurance
i figured i'll just stop being someone whom im not used being..
it's possible to stand on either sides,but not both..
if i wana go against her,it's be smthg like this..
she's bringing in her neice cuz her elder sis gt financial probs..
im not a saint,i didn hav to tolerate..
and she said that my dad's stressed up alot abt this..
but the nice daddy died eva since he beat up my mum..
i ain bothering cuz its not my prob..
if my dad dies,i dun mind dying smtime aftr tt..
if my dad dies,and i'd die of starvation,didn hav a place to live,
no money to skol,i didn mind at all..
cuz i wanted them to noe the consequences of not giving me wad i wan..
and cuz this is wad vengence can drive someone to..
or even more..
if im on her side,it'll mean that i sympathise wif her,
and that im a lil understanding and forgiving abt my dad..
tho i ain gona be nailed a title of a murder literally,
but i mite be by my sis or others,and tho tt wudn bother me,
i did sympathise with wad she said..
i didn want to,not that i cudn afford to..
and im not sayin these to make myself look like a saint or smthg..
but the fact that i did manage to curb the vengence and anger in me..
it's really not easy..
listening to the things that has already been set,unable to change..
feeling helpless about wanting something but not being able to get it..
it's aweful u noe..
i totally hate it..
and u shud not thats not how i do things..
except for the exceptions..
rite?
(pls dun disagree cuz i'd bite ur head off..lol..)
japan report
man..it's hell long man!!
im only 2days thru and im alrdy half dead can??
shall chiong finish the whole thg tml..
ps.i did more 1k+ de words for the 2days le..not easy k...
ants in my keyboard
arghhs!!!!
it's so irritating when u'r using ur com,
then u randomly spot an ants runnign here and there can?!?!?!
ya i noe can just kill them or wipe them off or smthg..
BUT THEY APPEAR AGAIN LEH!!!!!!!!!!
arghhh!!!
if i've completed my year 3,had a rich bf,had 2dozens of students learning piano frm me,
i'd just dump the whole laptop into DETERGENT k?!?!?!?!
wadeva sia!
vanishing contact
i was thinking..
i used to be the one bz replying..
and rite now,im the one waiting for the phone to ring..
the wind has now found itself a new teritory,
and moved on,leaving me behind..
how i wish it'd rain right now at this moment,
so that i'll be able to stop realising tt i feel like crying..
been stayin home recently tho..
oh ya!
im slping ovr at somebody's hs tml nite!!
cuz gona catch the horror movie on channel U at 2330!!
maybe whipping up smthg or calling pizza delivery oso..
hehex..
wad can i say??
ahh...im doted!!
=]
stillarrangingmythoughts.