March 20, 2009
@ 11:55
FATHER
my mum called me up today,telling the things my dad told her..
about the part i insisted to have my own rm,
he said tt im just as stubborn as my mum,
and that he's fed up,and if nthg can get thru me,
he wants me out of the house,and go live wif my bf..
guess at some point of time,parents kick their kids out huh?
GETTINGANAPARTMENT
so my mum kept tellin me stuff tt i hav to do get a house..
stuff abt applyin at the HDB in advance as INTENDING TO GET MARRIED couples..
so as usual,i consulted bf abt it aftr the conversation wif my mother..
to my disappointment,as usual,bf fanned the fire in me..
and i flew into rage..
bf was afraid of the cost the apartment wud cost alot,
which i'v alrdy explained to him that according to my mum,
it wudn cost more than 1k/mth..
and that it'll hav to take up to 4years to get everything done..
and i told him that my mum asked me to get a hs in our area,
instead of his area,cuz they'd be able to help me look aftr the hs and etc.
and he agreed to it..
but minutes later,he was worrying abt the cost again..
and was asking me to buy in his area instead!!
like..WTF?!?!?!
TOOMUCHTOHANDLE
things ar getting kinda outta hand..
appearing offline cuz he's tryin to avoid his ex??
cnt u just block her contact??
sounds like an excuse to me..
mayb im not used to people ignoring me and stuff..
and i cnt help poking my nose in tho i noe it's not my business..
bf's just a bunch of disappointment man...
a bottomless pit of disappointment.....
well,guess girls out there when u pick a bottomless pit,
don't pick one wif disappointment...
cuz it ain like as if u cnt get enuf of disappointment rite??
rite now,for me to be sure tt at least i'll get some earnings in future..
seems like a level 1099 thg for me to do..
seems so difficult leii...
mayb i shud just wait and see..
i told bf this..
"if u cnt garuntee me an apartment by the time im 24,im gone.."
i noe by now tt life isn as good as i'll expect it to be..
and i just cnt be bothered about it anymore..
so bearing in mind it takes abt 4years,and his english sucks!!
and that he dusn reali noe how to get about the problem,
it's best he starts before this year ends..
agree??
browsing thru affiliates'/friends' photos are just some cracking thg i do..
it cracks my heart to realis i rot before my lappy while othrs thon and bbq..
it cracks my eye and tears seem to shimmer at the brim of my sockets..
wondering why am i so lonely when i feel already quite contented..
that im doted,ignored by some people,hav a grade8 piano cert to rush out,
hav some people to sms once in awhile,hav a BFF at china while the other is missing smwher in singapore..
it still cracks aftr i finish lukin thru 0.5of their album,
wonderin why im such a serious nut,somehow in solitude,
feeling like an introvert..ain i??
2330 CHANNELU
tonite gt horror movie..
rmb to watch hor!!
then we review tgthr k??
hehex..
cya!!
wierdfeelings