March 18, 2009
@ 23:34
SELPMIP
.by now,i've been convinced that sometimes for pms,pimples do pop out of the blue..and bcom the singapore on ur face..
NAPAJ
.experiencing a better view,a wider scope,and processing for beta thoughts..
.did learn alot..
.not goin to go into details tho..
ECNARUDNE
.i had to go thru a stressed up monday,tues and wed to come to a conclusion that i wud hav to endure all those nonsense.
.itz abt ownership again..rights and etc..
.im nt going to get a room of my own..so i shud sleep on tt idea..
.i wud hav to share room wif somebody whom i'v been quite pissed at for being in my way..
.im stil tryin to figure out my mind,how to not be angry at people who took away wad i had..or even obstructing me frm getting wad i wan by remaining status quo.
.its a reali big challenge,or rather,a reali not-convincing-at-all solution..
.my mum saes,i shud let her off,help watch each others' back..she needs my help,and so would i..
.reason i dun find it convincing is cuz she'z just so fake can??and im too jealous le!!my father treating his gf's daughter like his own and me like a stranger??how can i not be jealous??
.my conclusion was to throw her out of the room and just force the thoughts to become the truth..harsh,but im still more authoritised than her..cuz it's in the blood can??
.but now,im still rotting my ass on the 7cm thick mattress while she snores on a 15cm thick one..
.i swear i need more patience and maturity on this than anything else i'v been experiencing lately..
SDNEIRF
.you cant force them to be ther for u,but u can choose to be ther for them.
.frens who leave you when u need them the most may not be an ideal kinda fren in ur eyes,but they mite hav their reasons for doin so..
.sometimes u dun say some things at people becuz it wun do any good..
(i shut alot of things inside me this month..it's fucked up,but i wud still just shut up..so dun rain on me.)
.some people care for you most when you least needed it,and u shud just be nice even when u wana be rude or nasty..cuz u dun hav to de..
LLA NI LLA
.i hav nthg much to sae to the person who thinks that i pangseh him or wad..except the fact that im just not wad he tinks i am..
.i'v inflicted a girl with my (16cm>9cm)*(9cm>1.3cm) body part before when my duration on earth was abt 9years..i ain afraid but it was respect..i hope it wasn taken forgranted..
.being alive longer than me for abt 12mths or less isn a reason to keep my mouth shut on certain things on certain occasions..respect has to be earned..not demanded..
.i may hav been too rush or sensitive,but if there was any psychological or emotional inflictions caused,im sorry and i too would hope to be forgiven..if it's not possible,i wudn force it onto anyone else becuz i didn get to noe why im not forgiven..if anybody wanted to tell me wher i went wrong,i'd be more than willing to listen..cuz it wun do any good bottling it up for possible explosions in the later phase..
.shant speak more..sleep early people..sorry for the delay and missing outs..mite compensate visually in the later days of the month or smthg..no promises on this tho..