April 24, 2009
@ 23:46
if there's such a thing..
if there's a pill which could erase a human's memory,
i'd take it so that i could forget the people i know..
if a ring is all you need to make things come true,
then i'd chop off all my fingers..
if a look is all you give after so many hours together,
i'd stop waiting..
if loneliness is all there is to make you love me,
then i'd rather be alone..
been really tired.
and very screwed up..
after such a meaningful lesson about C-programming yesterday,
i had a very easy going faci for my last day..
a man with patience..
and lots of it.
he's a great faci because he does both..
explaining clearly and patiently,
and has an easy going personality.
now.
for the whole day,this is not the only thing i've been doing..
i have..
woken up after having less than 6hours of sleep on monday,
tuesday,thursday and today..
have waited for donald's confirmation and gotten disappointed..
because after abt 2hours plus of waiting,
he finally tells me that he's not coming out..
got to know the grade for the horrible AE module..
and it's a horrible grade given by the horrible AUNG SOE(better to be called ASS).
been through a horrible week of weekdays..
with horrible facilitators and horrible attitude..
had broken down on tuesday because the faci was too much for me to handle..
had tried to be nice but kena fierced and accused..
and tried flattering the ASS because i didn't want to die too badly but still i did..
i guess all i need now is a break from school..
i don't see the reason for me not to look up the ASS..
neither do i think i would see any result if i ever look him up.
all these are making me sick..
psychologically sick..
to fall from a great height,to suffer in an invisible membrane..
how are these people-people issues ever going to solve without me having to go through these worries and sadness for some time??
i have been having drastic mindset changes from motivated to suffocation,
and have been crying seemingly every fortnight.
i don't talk as much as i used to in class and at home..
i didn't sleep enough because i was too busy and stressed,
i had been in and out,on and off on my mood for the whole of this week..
tell me,am i depressed??
are you depressed too??
i think i need another kind of life..