April 21, 2009
@ 16:38
WHAT INSIGHTS HAVE I GAINED TODAY??
i never had to work in an environment with more than 70% of guys before..
and it's been a real headache today and yesterday..
being in this class,i realise the MALE AURA overpowering the FEMALE AURA..
and like the weaker aura,i'm dying as minutes goes by because i'm kind of like..
losing myself??
tell me people..
HOW DO YOU LIVE WITH HATRED??
well,i bet by the end of this semester,
i'd be able to tell you the answer because right now,
each and everyday,I'M LIVING WITH HATRED!!
HATRED FOR SCIENCE!!
HATRED FOR MATHS!!
HATRED FOR CALCULATIONS!!
wth is wrong with myself??
i get headache from studying the modules,
i have to CONSTANTLY try to keep myself awake,
i look like a complete IDIOT because i am CONSTANTLY..
ASKING PEOPLE FOR HELP!!
i feel damn pissed and tired about today..
because it's worst than yesterday!!
how can it be true?!?!
the faci is a COMPLETE asshole i tell you.
no MSN,no WEBCAM,no CHATTING..
and when i listen to music because i didn't want to doze off,
he went on and on about how he grades..
that if u use msn,it will affect your grade..
if u sit there and don't understand anything,it will affect your grade..
if you listen to music,it will ALSO affect your grade..
i was like..
YOU DIDN'T EVEN SAY THAT!!!!
he didn't ask me why,
neither did he try to figure out if he was right..
he just ASSUMED!!
fucking hell..
i hate MEN!!
he is so snobbish,So UNKIND
so unreasonable,so HAS TUMMY!!
so like to pick problems,has NO LIMITS
so proud..
and HE SUCKS!!
he's better off alone sucking his own dick lar hor..
i can't believe how shallow is a guy..
SO WHAT IF he has double degree,bachelor,graduated from don't know where and where..
THAT HE ACTUALLY EXISTED!!
WTF?!??!
im totally pissed and suffering ok..
some sympathy please??
so many of my braincells died from MATHS yesterday,
and so many of it died from PHYSICS today!!
how is it even possible to live your life,
doing something you are LOUSY AT AND HATED ABOUT?!?!
i doubt marriage is even like that!!
i can't believe i even tried to be good at something i could kill myself with..
but once again...
there are one or two guys whom i find cute today..
again..
and i think...
i should make myself BLIND!!