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what is rain+heat+lack of sleep??
it's flu+sore throat+dark eye rings dude..

my body is in a terrible state now..
i've been having HONEYED-WATER for the past previous 24 hours..
before the 24hours that had just passed.

well,my throat has been feeling really SHIOK!!
(during the HONEYED 24hours)
and now,it's DRY AND PAINFUL..
(the 24hours after the honeyed one)
and it's killing me..
and i'm still nt on medication..
and i've been sneezing the whole day like NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!
WTF?!
totally hate it..

IS YOUR HEALTH READY FOR SCHOOL??

SERIOUS TALK..
talk..
right..
i had a quality talk with bf just an hour ago..
for a whole 45mins..

guess what we talked about!!

hehes..

SEX??
NOPE!!
but close~~
hahaz..

PREGNANCY??
HELL NO!!
but can say it's still kinda close...
keep guessing!!

HUH??

what??

YEA!!
THAT'S RIGHT!!
M-A-R-R-I-A-G-E.......

to some people,they would always say that it's one step into the GRAVE..
so some others,it's one step into HEAVEN..
and for me..

it's one step closer for me to RIP.
(Rest In Peace)

hahaz..
where got people so stupid right??
LOL...
well,i'm just frustrated about a fact..
the fact that my bf aint a LAWYER,or DOCTOR,
or TEACHER,or ARTIST!!!!
BEAUTIFUL DREAM HUH..
what the hell?????
well,he brought me into reality..
i never thought or imagined myself marrying to someone..
someone like him..
nothing but a driver!!
a DELIVERY GUY!!!

it's not that i despise him or what..
but it's just that i dont want to live the rest of my life..
if i ever marry him(which is a HUGE possibility),
eating PORRIDGE and trying to MAKE ENDS MEET!!
FUCK THAT!!
i mean..which girl,IN THE RIGHT STATE OF MIND,
would want THAT?!
whooo?!?!??!?!

i hated it..
...for about a month.
and i've been trying to dump him..
but it just didnt work..
because i felt that it's not worth it..
yet i couldnt accept it..
then...

him: "i just want to live a simple lifestyle..simple love..you know.."
me: "my idea of love can never be simple!!even the most OK one would mean my husband being the breadwinner,earning money to support the kids,pay the bills and everything while the wife stays home to look after the kids.if she wants to work,then use the home as a base.and the kids,they HAVE TO study..if i have kids who DOESN'T STUDY,I'D RATHER DIE!!I'D RATHER THEY DIE!!"
him: -silence and listening-
me: "your mother doesn't even care if you and your two younger brothers study OR NOT!!and she treats me like as if im invisible..doesn't like me,doesn't dont like me..doesn't care..so what's all my respect for her for??FOR TREATING ME INVISIBLE and REPORTING ON ME to not stay overnight because SHE CAN'T TRUST ME??"

i'm all brainfucked lar..

then i realised something..
*upbringing plays a big part in marriage..
-my mother teaches and looks after me very STRICTLY while his doesn't.
-i can't imagine my future going HAYWIRE when HE DOESN'T MIND.
*surrounding affects the mind..
-i can tell that he's trying to UPGRADE himself,but he's abit LAZY here and there because he haven't been having to do so for the past what..23 YEARS?!?!
-and i am scared that the PHENOMENA would come true after marriage..

"BEFORE MARRIAGE,THEY ARE VERY NICE TO YOU BECAUSE THEY WANT YOU TO MARRY THEM..BUT AFTER MARRIAGE,THEY WOULDN'T EVEN CARE BECAUSE THEY DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE!"

THAT,is so scary.

even so so sooo long before i even DECIDE if i want to marry,
i'm experiencing the before-marriage jitters already!!

not being able to earn more than enough is something i can't accept,
and i realise,that's all there is about this guy!!
i can give a try to trust him on breaking the phenomenon since his dad is so loyal to his mum...
but probably because he no money,so can't flirt~
but i can't worry my life away!!
would you want to marry him if you were me??
yes??no??

awww...
anyway,i love him..
i know it sounds mushy but bear with me..
i feel really comfortable around him..
not afraid even if my pants split or something..
and he never flares up on me no matter how fierce i am to him..
if he can UPGRADE himself,
i wont mind anything else..
even if i have to stay INDOOR 80% of the REST OF MY LIFE..
i guess..

smiles~~......??

what is rain+heat+lack of sleep??
it's flu+sore throat+dark eye rings dude..

my body is in a terrible state now..
i've been having HONEYED-WATER for the past previous 24 hours..
before the 24hours that had just passed.

well,my throat has been feeling really SHIOK!!
(during the HONEYED 24hours)
and now,it's DRY AND PAINFUL..
(the 24hours after the honeyed one)
and it's killing me..
and i'm still nt on medication..
and i've been sneezing the whole day like NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!
WTF?!
totally hate it..

IS YOUR HEALTH READY FOR SCHOOL??

SERIOUS TALK..
talk..
right..
i had a quality talk with bf just an hour ago..
for a whole 45mins..

guess what we talked about!!

hehes..

SEX??
NOPE!!
but close~~
hahaz..

PREGNANCY??
HELL NO!!
but can say it's still kinda close...
keep guessing!!

HUH??

what??

YEA!!
THAT'S RIGHT!!
M-A-R-R-I-A-G-E.......

to some people,they would always say that it's one step into the GRAVE..
so some others,it's one step into HEAVEN..
and for me..

it's one step closer for me to RIP.
(Rest In Peace)

hahaz..
where got people so stupid right??
LOL...
well,i'm just frustrated about a fact..
the fact that my bf aint a LAWYER,or DOCTOR,
or TEACHER,or ARTIST!!!!
BEAUTIFUL DREAM HUH..
what the hell?????
well,he brought me into reality..
i never thought or imagined myself marrying to someone..
someone like him..
nothing but a driver!!
a DELIVERY GUY!!!

it's not that i despise him or what..
but it's just that i dont want to live the rest of my life..
if i ever marry him(which is a HUGE possibility),
eating PORRIDGE and trying to MAKE ENDS MEET!!
FUCK THAT!!
i mean..which girl,IN THE RIGHT STATE OF MIND,
would want THAT?!
whooo?!?!??!?!

i hated it..
...for about a month.
and i've been trying to dump him..
but it just didnt work..
because i felt that it's not worth it..
yet i couldnt accept it..
then...

him: "i just want to live a simple lifestyle..simple love..you know.."
me: "my idea of love can never be simple!!even the most OK one would mean my husband being the breadwinner,earning money to support the kids,pay the bills and everything while the wife stays home to look after the kids.if she wants to work,then use the home as a base.and the kids,they HAVE TO study..if i have kids who DOESN'T STUDY,I'D RATHER DIE!!I'D RATHER THEY DIE!!"
him: -silence and listening-
me: "your mother doesn't even care if you and your two younger brothers study OR NOT!!and she treats me like as if im invisible..doesn't like me,doesn't dont like me..doesn't care..so what's all my respect for her for??FOR TREATING ME INVISIBLE and REPORTING ON ME to not stay overnight because SHE CAN'T TRUST ME??"

i'm all brainfucked lar..

then i realised something..
*upbringing plays a big part in marriage..
-my mother teaches and looks after me very STRICTLY while his doesn't.
-i can't imagine my future going HAYWIRE when HE DOESN'T MIND.
*surrounding affects the mind..
-i can tell that he's trying to UPGRADE himself,but he's abit LAZY here and there because he haven't been having to do so for the past what..23 YEARS?!?!
-and i am scared that the PHENOMENA would come true after marriage..

"BEFORE MARRIAGE,THEY ARE VERY NICE TO YOU BECAUSE THEY WANT YOU TO MARRY THEM..BUT AFTER MARRIAGE,THEY WOULDN'T EVEN CARE BECAUSE THEY DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE!"

THAT,is so scary.

even so so sooo long before i even DECIDE if i want to marry,
i'm experiencing the before-marriage jitters already!!

not being able to earn more than enough is something i can't accept,
and i realise,that's all there is about this guy!!
i can give a try to trust him on breaking the phenomenon since his dad is so loyal to his mum...
but probably because he no money,so can't flirt~
but i can't worry my life away!!
would you want to marry him if you were me??
yes??no??

awww...
anyway,i love him..
i know it sounds mushy but bear with me..
i feel really comfortable around him..
not afraid even if my pants split or something..
and he never flares up on me no matter how fierce i am to him..
if he can UPGRADE himself,
i wont mind anything else..
even if i have to stay INDOOR 80% of the REST OF MY LIFE..
i guess..

smiles~~......??

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