01. i my me mine.

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May 3, 2009

@ 22:51

a bottle of my thoughts..

1) WATCH BLING-ED!!
-i made customised this..
it's for sale on my blog..
only at $10 each!!
colors in stock currently are 2white ones..
but if you want other color ones,
you can tell me the combi you want lor..
then i do for you k??

any other enquiries also can just email me..

2) im would be in deep trouble if i worshipped thai god.

- because it's probably going to make me a more creepy person..

3) some people/things are just different and i have to accept it.

-i saw this familiar face on a friend's blog,

but it's for sure that this familiar face wouldn't remember anything about me..

or maybe,i just happen to have too good a memory,

to remember the faces-i-see-often-around-the-school..

even when i've only been in the same class as them for once..

she's angel from WRSS right??

she'd know Ms Elizabeth Choo who became Mrs Kong later..

a tall slim tomboy-ish female teacher who picks on handwritings..

if i'm not wrong..

anyway,she'll never recognise me..

doesn't have to either..

-i'm not trying to harp on it right now but just to clarify it to you.

i just don't like to be called “为了钱而放弃朋友”,

"childish","stubborn","didn't think clearly" etc. etc..

i don't mind telling people that i'm slow and hesitant,

but that doesn't mean that i say things without thinking about the consequences.

to L:i just wanted to ask you out of politeness,

because you were one of the people from that big group from w35d,

who made me felt like i was being appreciated and understood,

accepted and trusted.

and i didn't want any misunderstandings like i was stealing your idea or something to pop up if i just did it without asking you.

so i just asked you..

but those replies felt like pricks.

and when you called me you-know-what on your blog,

things seemed like it was getting out of hand..

i never thought of giving up on friends for money..

and i didn't suspect that you were the "gal".

it was just myself clarifying that if "gal" was really someone i knew,

i'd hope i could find out and stay away from her.

who would want to get into trouble with someone you already know didn't like yourself??

and i didn't block you on msn..

i was only online for less than 30 mins or an hour..

because my faci would penalise us for that,

not to mention that he keeps watching us,by non-stop patrolling.

i only talked to emmeline that day because she was asking me about the outing stuff..

meeting up..

and soon after i logged out.

it's up to you to believe me or not.

if you don't care,or wouldn't want to say anything,

i'd totally understand because i've never stopped fearing you.

but i wouldn't want to appologise here,

or even make myself sound like im begging you,

because none of my intentions was to make you feel this way,

but i'm only feeling different because it turned out this way.

another thing is that though my blogshop's not very old or recognised,

and i'm not very experienced or good at this,

it's still a blogshop afterall,my blogshop.

like any other comparing blogshops present out there,

there would be competition,as well as similar products.

if it makes you feel better that i don't view your blogshop,

or even blog too,by all means i would stop doing that.

to D:if there's anything you want me to know,

but felt like i wouldn't accept,please just repeat it right in my face..

if by then i still don't get it,then do what you did..

what you did was really unexpected..

walking to school together..

asking me to wait..

then just ended up on your way home or going home..

it was like as if i was abandoned..

and the cold-war the next 24hours was suffocating..

i'm sorry if i gave you the wrong impression or something..

but please don't do this the next time..

please bother to explain what it is to me k??

im sorry if you got hurt because of that..

i didn't intend to or wanted to..

to K:i have a feeling that you're going through the kind-of-difficult phase of your life right now..

with lots of different feelings and thoughts which kind of felt like a mood swing or you being tempremental or confused,

but you have to try harder talking to yourself,

being quiet and listening..

it's not easy,neither is it going to be impossible..

im a capricorn,you are one too.

we think similarly,and act similarly too.

and though i don't believe it in the past,i do now.

it's because of these that i'll feel differently but somehow similarly,

towards some of the things we tell each other.

i do hope you'll pass through this phase real soon,

and things would turn out better for your side of the world,

but that's only because i've gone through that once.

nonetheless,it's not like i won't have to go through it again..

and i'll learn to accept your way of doing things too so..

cheers.

4) pp is getting on my nerves.

-i'm not a love-to-read kinda person,

and this professional profiling is really eating me up from the inside..

-i need to move my ass to get it done soon,

so i'll be rather busy and not so active on places..

like..anywhere.

5) buying mouse(s) are just as good as counting on your luck.

- i bought a mouse just yesterday,

and it's spoilt within 30mins of use!!

i didn't throw it or purposely damage it..

but its cursor stopped moving though it's still able to click..

so i meanie-ed the popular staffs to ask for a REFUND.

i really feel bad but i that's the only way i can get my money back in a more confirmed kinda way..

sorry pop-peeps!!

-was thinking of getting a razor copperhead 4000dpi mouse..

but forget about it after some hours of craze..

well,it's not my fault lor..

i've never gotten the chance to choose..

and pick something pricey i like can??

-after much hesitant,i still ended up with a $17.90 mouse though..

thought it won't be much of a pain in my heart..

if i ever lost it or spoil it..

6) Friday the 13th was hell scary!!

-watched it just now and got frightened like fuck.

felt like as if i was going to wet my pants anytime lor..

it's really sickening that the Jason wouldn't die no matter what..

but i think he would die if his head falls of..

right??

7) being egoistic is somehow like being a perfectionist.
- except it's a more overboard version as compared to a perfectionist..

-i shall stop playing table tennis for now..

-basketball is still okay i guess..

what have you been busy with??