June 16, 2009
@ 13:13
break up.
yes,i broke up.
because besides the flaws like any other had,
he simply couldn't stop talking about his mother,
putting his mother into consideration of our future.
it used to be about the licence..
in 2009 january,it's been about half a year to a year,
since he grad from army.
licence from army,which would be issued,
needs to go through waiting time,on waiting list.
he waited from about the time i grad from sec school,
till january 2009.
so i told him to stop waiting,cancel it,
and just go take the test and get a licence,
and get a better job.
so i put in alot of effort to nagging him from january,
and i only got to reap what i sow when he finally decided..
to do as i suggested..in mid april 2009.
but now,about the HDB..
i often just throw the thought away..
the thought "after marriage,where would i stay?" away.
he suggested to stay with his parents,
a house which has only 2room,one living room,and a kitchen.
of course,with 2 toilets,they had.
but recently,as i was informed by my mum that HDB as had a new scheme,
which after government subsidy,cost from $900+ to around $1500.
it's unbelievable,yes..but too,it was disappointing.
yesterday's news reported that two locations had already sold out all the units available,
and it's selling fast.
one of the area had applications 3times the number of units available.
great response,great deal,why not?
i told him 2months ago,but til yesterday,the announcement,
i told him that this is the last chance i would give him,
a week to find out everything..
yet he before he even try to find out about the details and requirements,
he simply replied "what if my mother don't allow??"
i further questioned him if he would compromise to his mother or me,
but he was too sick to answer,and just paltered me off..
i had enough..
for 2years,and even way before we were together,
probably a total of 3 years plus,
from a guy who always hangs up on me whenever he doesn't feel like talking,
and just offs his phone when he is angry,
to a guy who would beg me not hang up on him..
i wouldn't calculate on the things he could change,
not having good education,not being able to save up,
doesn't plan for future,cannot speak his languages well,
he just simply gives me excuses to get away,
excuses to drag the matter..probably till a time whereby i would not be able to remember or the fact that the matter would just slip off my mind.
i don't care about what parents say..
you may depict this as rebellious,but this is me.
i have my own stand,my ways of doing things.
i do listen to advices and suggestions once in awhile,
but i do not listen to commands or dictations well.
i don't like it,i won't,and i never will.
be it stubborn or stupidity,
i believe that he should have been able to decide by himself..
not simply running away and just leaving an excuse behind.
yet,it seems to me,that i've overestimated him..