June 17, 2009
@ 23:07
single life.
just as i thought,i felt,i imagined,
i didn't have lunch today..
had been thinking about him.
and i realised some things..
-he had been avoidine me.
and i gave up trying to reach him..
because if he was really that sincere,
i felt that he shouldn't just shut me up..
and ignore or avoid me.
so i guess we wont be talking anytime soon..
=(
-i dont know much about him.
it's easy for me when i can understand one's train of thoughts,
but i just cant understand his.
besides,now that he's avoiding me,
all the more i cant ask or talk to him directly..
plus,each time we talk,
we get spiked by each other,
and pissed off because of my status..
so we didn't progressed anywhere.
=(
-if he does not look this way,i might not feel the same.
what i mean is that..looks.
if he does not look the way he is now,
i'd probably prefered jerry..
because jerry wouldn't hurt me the way he did.
=/
-my mindset changed..somehow.
i realise that after breaking up with jerry,
i have the urge to want to be stronger..
i want to change for the better,
because i want to..and not because of any1 else.
i have been encouraging a friend to do what he agrees with himself,
and not because of what others or elders wants him to..
to some parents,this may sound like as if i'm influencing them to rebel,
but it's a good process for them because it would allow some space for their thoughts to process..
think about it yourself,worry about it yourself,
and choose your own path,which path to walk..
because you will be the one walking along it.
so i just wana make a note to myself..
that i would not wait for him,
or go on my knees for him..
or even cry everynight that he would call me..
but i would settle for what is best for me,
what i would live with for the rest of my life.
=]
-i dont understand marriage.
i don't get it man..
hate it..totally.
shall update when i found out.
=/
-i like Geisha!!
the make up is totally cool man!!
shall learn more about it.
=]
UT.
i totally screwed my paper today..
those using lappy were allowed to refer to resources in the lappy,
but those doing on papers were not allowed to refer!!
wth??
it's not even fair lor!!
papers should be allowed with paper resources right..
isn't it the same man??
fucking hell...
screw the bloody tp principal pls!!
arghh.......
nobody said it was going to be easy,
it's just a little difficult.