July 15, 2009
@ 21:48
impaired communication.
to keep saying words,
to keep typing words,
to keep listening to words..
these are just driving me nuts!!
it made me felt like i needed a 3days of shopping??
i don't know man..
i don't know anymore..
i felt like i'm becoming more and more autistic lor..
many times,i just don't feel like speaking..
or rather,just expressions or quietness,
to let the question fade..
i wonder why i let this happen to myself.
i used to talk on the phone with many different people everynight.
but now,i'm just quietly sms-ing,
and sometimes,i won't even reply..
where did my mouth go??
i only have this few phrases going in my head saying..
even if you speak,nobody will hear you..
even if you say it out,it won't happen..
even if you tell them,they won't bother..
it makes me feel like a freak you know?
and it has become more and more like a conclusion for me,
that i shall not advise,
shall not worry,
shall not cry,
shall not ask for anything anymore..