July 20, 2009
@ 10:29
just throw something.
as the title suggests,i did that yesterday.
well,i'm just too bu-fu-qi (不服气) to just cry alone,
while my father happy happy have a nap..
so just before i walk out of the house,
i threw a pair of shoes at him,
serving as a warning(meaning the shoe didn't hit him).
he said that he wants my passport and ic..
reason being he promised mother,
that after i return from japan,
he'd return that to her..
now that they feel worried that i might go Lala Land,
they want the passport back.
i don't care if they'll know i've went there before,
or the fact that i still hate them and their doings,
i just can't be bothered anymore.
take the passport,but i'll keep the ic.
just stop asking if i still want to study or not.
it's redundant.
you know..
since the day i went to NAFA to register for the test,
i had already made up my mind who i wana be..
stepping on my dream,forcing me unto the track of engineering,
i've spent the past 1 and a half years doing bearing that consequence.
trust me,hating someone is not as unbearable as what i'm going through everyday,
having to do science and maths every single lesson,
yet having to scape the debts of the school fees,
they seriously don't have the rights to stop me from going school,
because that man promised to support me if i could get into poly,
and that my 1.5years of time + a chance to study at NAFA,
plus bearing the loss of kinship and horrible maths environment,
they seriously won't understand what i'm going through.
i called mother after some thinking.
i will pass her my passport,just not the ic.
and having made that decision/promise,
she has "promised" to settle evrything about it..
meaning my pocket money/piano..
everything about my dad's stupid pea brain.
my dear friends,i'm much better le..
do attend my funeral if i die one day trying to kill them,
or just help me find a job which accepts "ex-convicts"..
cuz i might end up in girls' home someday soon,
if 3years don't come faster..
yet he sides that woman,
saying she's not causing distress nor mockery.