November 15, 2009
@ 12:14
hello people.
this week has been aweful.
out of 7days,168hours,10080mins,604800seconds,
i've spent more than 2days being angry,
struggled for more than 3hours,
got wrecked by 1test,
panicked about more than 4things,
yet having cried for only once.
i guess having listed,i realise i've done quite a good job.
steering this life where i wish to go,
i have constantly asked myself..
"why?"
why did i have to go through such arguments with my parents?
why did i have to miss that certain someone so much?
why do i have to struggle during the test and not realise that my equipment was faulty much earlier?
why did i force myself to go through hunger when i could have just loved myself a little more?
why did i find it so hard to write a planner?
how come i didn't know how to write one?
why can't i stick to writing a planner?
why did i lock the piano up and hide the key when my father asked for it?
why did i hate my father so much?
doesn't he lest deserve some respect?
why do i miss my mother?
how can i feel not stressed?
what are we going to buy for isabel?
when will i be able to do all the things i've listed on my to-do list?
when is he going to call?
why didn't he call?
what was he thinking?
why do i feel this way?
i don't know who i am again.
not sure if i want to find out.
at least i was happy for more than once.
at least i was happy before i became sad.