November 26, 2009
@ 15:35
im bottling alot of things in me
there are reasons why im not returning to christ
and why im not talking much to people i see alot
i've learnt quite abit of new things since the new semester
you don't have to know everything even if it means you're the one involved.
simply sometimes,ignorance is a bliss
and that sometimes,that's a good way to end things
it's not about how you want it to turn out but knowing how the other party actually feels.
i've been hurt alot but it doesn't matter
because the reason i want to do it is not because of a fairytale
neither is it to have the other party to me
but because i want to hear from them how they feel about me
only when you hear the truth sent straight from them
will you be able to give up that piece of hope
nobody cares about you if all you want to be is stubborn.
even if there is someone out there who cares about you
you wont be able to see it cuz you're too self-centered
it's easier living for others than for yourself.
sometimes you might lose yourself while walking in the tracks fixed by others
and it might hurts you because they were not careful enough to track the path properly,for you to walk safely withouht getting blisters
but it's not their fault because eventually
you're the one controlling your limbs and mind
even if it means that your heart has a mind of it's own
you cannot control how others feel about you,neither can you stop what is to come..but you can prepare yourself,repair yourself.
like caterpillars,we all have to be a cocoon before becoming a butterfly
just that in life,before you understand and feel better about one thing
you would cry and feel sad about it
maybe im missing the point,maybe im just to caught up with myself..but i know there are alot of things bottled up and no one knows about it.
no one wants to know.
im going to stop talking about it.
im going to give up.
im going to keep it to myself.