November 2, 2009
@ 15:49
TELL ME..
and so i thought..
why not i live alone?
why not i die now?
why not i just dress up everyday even if it's for skol?
well,im yuanshan..
yuanshan does not dress up..
reason being she's afraid of what others wud say about her..
when compared with the better..
yuanshan is afraid of loneliness..
because she needs lotsa love and comfort,
that she finds it hard to accept since young..
because of the family she has,
and the wierd environment she lives in..
yuanshan wants to die now,but is afraid of the pain..
the regrets that she would have to die with cuz of the unfulfilled dreams..
the pain that she has to go through the period before everything stops..
yuanshan's a coward.
she's mean,fierce,unfriendly.
her mood fluctuates and she does not bother what others say about her when she's mad.
she yearns for love but never get satisfied because she does not know what being contented means.
she hurts herself whenever she's sad,loses her appetite whenever she's strung out..
and she is not nice to her parents..
she's stubborn,stupid because her younger sister does better than her in academics,
she's ugly because she's not slim,and she turns guys off.
she likes to say how much she hates guys but yet she longs for their attention and devotion..
she's not anybody.
she's yuanshan.
recognise her from the way she behaves..
she's easily aggitated,easily pissed.
she never behaves in a civilised manner.
she likes to sleep on her left but because of her ear,she's sleeping on the right..
in any way,she sleeps on her sides..
she sleeps in a corner and does not rule the bed like any "rocker" would.
she draws and sings alot,not caring what others would say about her..
if criticised,she'd prove them wrong.
how much of these things can you say?
how much of these do you know?
this is who i am.