December 9, 2009
@ 14:42
* blog appearance.
shall be editing my template again.
* the past.
it's been bothering me recently how people who misunderstood my intention,
treats me with the misunderstood attitude.
i can't tolerate accusation,
neither am i this emotionless when you tell me you hate me,
cuz of what you thought i did,
and that you didn't even wanna noe what went wrong.
it's worse when you influenced your pals about it.
you can act like there's nothing wrong for all you want,
but you know very well the thing that happened between us was not just anything,
neither was it nothing.
on the other side,im still trying to hide away those emotions.
i think im a good-enough liar,just not ruthless-enough.
hope i could be one,so that i would be able to hide just anything,
even those reproductive thoughts of you..
somehow,they seem to be really good at multiplying with time.
* family.
im glad my thoughts are more or less straightened out.
no longer that bothered by father.
i guess,no matter what,i can never get over what i saw,what i heard,what he told me.
there's no need for anymore evidence when it's just right in front of you,
living the lousy lie which even my sister can uncover.
* plan.
im planning afew things recently,or rather,participating.
anyways,im still going out.
so i guess it ain't much of a difference afterall no??
- visit to museum
- meet up 37465
- collecting art piece
- shopping
- meet up 2428
(LY,J,S,V,HH,D,QH,ZY,HY,CE,PY,G,R)
wondering if i should work.
cuz i'll be having workshops during the holiday.
a 3-day thing.
hope the fiber optics are cooperative enough.
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* Father.
this Father im referring to is much more different that the other.
this Father i know,is really nice.
He's been helping me realise and understand so many things,
yet i havn't been visiting Him.
i miss him,Father,you know that..
You've helped me take things so much more easier,
and i really hope my mother knows about this,
that she could be able to feel it too..