February 1, 2010
@ 22:57
insecurity devours me from within as if there were a blackhole in me.
Watched Law Abiding Citizen yesterday with CJ.the show was rather long winded,but i guess it was good.with the entertainment of two fellow moviemates there,it was really good.
celebrated RY's birthday yesterday at Orchard Cineleisure Kbox Lvl 8.sang from abt 8pm to 11pm,$8 per pax.i didn't answer 2 calls from my mother,and as expected,the reason she called was to ask me home early.
i insisted my own decision,and upon reaching home at abt 12plus,i realise that she was still in the living rm,awake,with the lock changed.i looked at her awhile,and realise she's not gonna care about how i feel just the way i thought about her..
last night,i did everything.the silent treatment,the provoking,calling out to her conscience,talking from her perspective,letting her do what she wanted me to..everything.as usual,i punched concrete,i got wacked..by her using her solid platform slippers.i went home at abt 2am+,slept at abt 3am+ in the morning.
pon skol for the first time of this semester today.whoO~ it's SUPERB i tell u.damn happy oso.but wasn't able to go pool cuz i used today's pocket money to pay up the $1/day electric bill to mother..cuz for abt 1wk plus i havn't been paying so..ya,one shot payment..like a big bomb lor~
anyway,did communication revision today.though very little was revised,but at least i understood everything that i've revised today.
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nites peeps~ sweet dreams~