June 2, 2010
@ 17:12
it's just me.
i've been constantly telling myself that all these is going to work,been throwing lots of scenes at myself, telling myself that everything's going well and it's just myself thinking too much..
but then..
i felt devoured now..
it was like as if our hard work decorating the sand by the beach had not been washed away by one big wave..
but was slowly washed off by the gentle waves that comes one after another.
my patience had been washed away by the waves of time that came gently, one after another.
there's nothing i could hold on to, nothing i could cry on..
but on the bed, by myself, under the blanket.. hugging the bolster..
crying the tears out of my life..
watching helplessly as everything come crashing down..
i'm outta my wits..